Inner-self talk.

There comes new post.



Deep down inside, I have no idea who I am right now. Never gonna be easy this world. 

Thus, there's something I can't explain to you. Stay. Just stay there would you please?
I'm holding tight, real tight to You.



There must be reason for I am being allocated here. Stay strong, dear self. 



Dear you, 
You sure wanna know who I am truly? If one thing would disappoint you after knowing me, will you stay or otherwise you will leave me behind faaaaaar away like I have never imagine? But I do hope you stay right there, not that far that I can reach you from within. Let all be memories, for me and you :) Just be there. Will youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu? T_T


#in.need.of.hugs.
#I.mean.big.and.warm.hugs

:)
:)
:)

...last2 gune firefox juge

1~ The browser u're using..
HP ke-weak Web browse, ngahaha, Quick ekceli

2~ The activities today..
kelases cuti ganti banjer, buat survey ayat merapu

3~ Any breaking news..
tarak kot, terperap dlm bilik jer

4~ Current songs downloading..
takde, cilok orang punye jer, banyak lagu lama

5~ The connection of internet..
wifi kolej haha. cam chipsmore

6~ Places gone to today..
kelas, makmal, booth cendoi haha

7~ Games/sports play today..
game kat henfon jer

8~ Plan to do today..
tadak idea lg, kacau org kot, mcm biasa

9~ Last person u met..
chegu lab kimia, sbb last klas td

10~ Last thing u fed urself..
ayaq cendoi a, kit kat gak

11~ Last thing u bought..
cendoi gak. lagi2 cendoi

12~ Last thing on mind..
biler kak nasha nak buat survey lg :P

13~ First thing after the last thing on mind..
biler aku nk abeh matriks, miahaha :D

14~ Random motivation wisdom
"Saat kekalahan bermula apabila kamu berasa lemah dalam perjuangan, dan saat kemenangan bermula apabila kamu melawan rasa lemah itu"

15~ Latest person u called..
takde sape kot

16~ Latest story book been read..
lagi laaaa, kitab2 kuliah la kot, jdkan story book

17~ Good things done since 1st Jan 2011..
hihi...gud one, nothing much kut. buat amal kebajikan je ler

18~ Worst kick-ass attitude ever done..
huhu kacau org jer la, aku kan mmg camtu

19~ The breakfast for today..
today ni dah masuk hari ke-2 buat post ni, haha. td nasi goreng lerrr

20~ Ever try truancy..
kahaha yg x wajib punye jer

21~ Words to describe ur bag..
cantek, comei, saye punye, gelap, smart gitu

hari raya hari utk semua! sekian. pegi study la. daa

dry heart

As salam.

Signed in..

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Oh yeah, exam starts tomorrow, mid in Jan. Within 3 months, I'm off from this college.
Would it be nice, if the plans are liking to move like they'll be..
Like what've been planned in my mind.

Family, Canada, ice skating, friends, bookstore (wuhoo!!), moviessss, Romantika Wangsa Walk (hehe! ;D), talktalktalk and talkk, tourrr, planes :P

Ok. Dreaming set, moving on. Off I go now.

hari kekantoi-an

salam alaykum.

[saye update sebagai silent reader yg loyal]

1] What does the very first blog u read say?
the blogger is a girl, Malaysian, of cos. study kat oversea, US. org Darul Aman. tapi saye dgn dia dah x mcm silent reader sgt. saye bising2 gak kat dinding fb beliau. kee3. yg best nye post utk taun baru, dia g jejln. teruja smgt saye nk g oversea. (...Aminn)

2] Has the second blogger married?
nop, he's single mingle. available? not sure there. huahua. student Canada, Malaysian. lama dh stalk, tapi saye dah kate, saye silent reader, kan. so, post dia agak sirius sket yakni mencari diri sniri. cara? tgk cermin, cakap pd diri yg dlm cermin. reflction gitu la, tringat daku pada ke-down-an motivasi time kat kolej & kertas fizik yg bakal menjelang nanti. tsk tsk. ni blog beliau, harap dpt izin huhu www.ragooze.com/

3] Who's the very 3rd blogger you stalked?
a guy, named.. err takyah la ye. Malaysian gak. susunan ayat mmg best! style aku nk buat cam dia gak a, tapi x se-power beliau. study UK. post terbaru, suh ingat pasal mati. setaun yg dtg, mendekatkan kita dgn mati. betol? =)

4] How long have you been stalking this 4th blogger?
beliau, baru jer. tak brani nk link, sori. kata2 mantap! kasi naik smangat. suh study leklok. akhirat jgn tinggai. okeh? bereh

5] Are you stalking only the men?
not really. tapi kebanyakan nye aku tersangkut kat ayat2 power dorg, which aku terasa dgn cara positif. kalau la diorg ni abg2 aku.... (takde probability langsung) *ayat tersangkut. biasenye, sbb laki ni en mantap sket bab2 sound org. (tanpa mengetepikan kata2 bunda saye yer)




*siyes, penaik semangat di alam maya a dorg ni! ade sorang lg, tapi yg tu dah bising aritu, terkantoi huhu ~.~
*ramai lg yg lain, mls nk bgtau sumer, sket2 dah ler

"Ingat kebesaran Allah, benda lain akan jadi kecil"

salam

senyum, senyum, .. hilang
kamu jer yang pikir mcm yang kamu pikir, orang lain tak pon.
bangkit, mundar mandir,
kenapa yang di belakang? kamu, majulah ke depan. macam tak biasa plak
ingat kembali, pesan punye pesan, tang tu jugak. aiyo *garu kepala*

lari jauh jauh
nak cepat?
cepat ke mana? bulat kan figura planet ni mane de penghujung.
jadi, nak cepat g mane? lama lama, masuk dlm rumah tiang dua jugak

sudah sudah la
dah tau hati bosan, buat jugak orang lain pon dah paham sangat
yang kamu tu, dah bosan tapi buat jugak lagi kenapa?
dosa kecik besar tu,
kasi ingat la brader, sista
serius cakap, geli dengar gelak kecik2 tu laki dgn pompuan,

ish dah dahh ingat mati, kawan
paling susah pon, campak diri sniri dalam kubur
takde rase lagi?
kering nih g balut diri dgn kain putih terus la.

dah dah. *cabut

Mereka berkata
Hidup perlukan cinta
Agar sejahtera aman dan bahagia
Andai tiada atau pudar warnanya
Meranalah jiwa gelaplah dunia

Warna-warna cinta
Yang terlukis di hatimu
Semat pada senyuman dan tangismu
Agar mewarnai
Jiwamu yang tulus
Seperti sang pelangi selepas gerimis
Mereka berkata
Cinta itu merah
Mengalir bersama titisan yang sempurna

Cinta berharga bila sudah tiada
Menjadi sejarah yang mungkin kan di lupa
Apa warna cinta
Bila hidup sengketa
Kabur warnanya

Warna-warna cinta
Yang terlukis di hatimu
Semat pada senyuman dan tangismu
Agar mewarnai jiwamu yang tulus
Seperti sang pelangi selepas gerimis

exam mode now.

saye nak tgk movieee

Salam alaykum warahamtullah.

Hari ni, saye nak bagi tau..

1] Pak guard, jangan la garang sangat, consider la sikit kebajikan orang lain T_T
2] baru habis kuliah malam, then dapat barang dari adik kat pak guard. kenduri saye mlm ni bersama rumet yg belom tido, hehe :D
3] this weekend saye plan nak stay over kat rumah fatin kat sik, ceruk hujung dunia =P
4] saje nak update blog, mcm dah jd rutin sebulan sekali
5] sejak sem 2 bermula, semua makhluk mcm tersangatlah busy ke hulur dan ke hilir >.>
6] dapat banyak gak kawan baru hehe, ni paling syiokkkk
7] jadi MC utk majlis ICT ahad lepas, gabra2 pon jalan gak~ ;)
8] saye masih berstatus 'silent reader'
9] baru habis makan burger :PPP
10] bakal menjadi nurse terjun (tukar bidan terjun ke nurse terjun huhu) untuk pemain ragbi, gud luck kpd mereka2, main leklok! bg saye rileks2 plak huhu

Saye rase ..

1] dah lama x buat survey, mcm tarak idea + ke-busy-an melanda juga menggugat idea utk datang dgn clean n clear huhu
2] this week saye bergerak 24/7, +/- waktu tidur dan rutin2 saye sbgi manusia, LOL
3] macam dah lama x jumpe kawan skola menengah, ehh
4] nak merapu jer dgn blog ni, heh
5] macam nak sambung study lg lepas update blog
6] nak ulang baca post2 kawan2 blogger saye
7] macam ada soalan nak tanye kat cyberclinic, okeh jap lg!
8] macam2 rase saye ade skrg...
9] banyak lagu2 lama saye dok dgr dgn rumet2, huahua~
10] sekejap je dan habis sem 1, jap lg habis matriks plak wohoo
11] majority profile fb yg saye stalk dah privatekan fb masing2 :( tapi ade segelintir yg masih open-minded, hehe. saye... x tau solid reason ape nk add mereka, sbb org add saye, saye x approve =p
12] bakal tidor lewat lg ke mlm ni?
13] oh... tgh isi borang kemasukan ke usm :) hehe

banyak gak kata2 terpendam saye ni eh :P

p/s : wahai blogger2 sekalian, update la blog!!

Hahaha

Assalammualaikum.

Saya nak berbicara sorang sorang je.. Baru tukar template. Style baru plak skang.
Esok exam MUET. Hopefully will be the first and the last, with a distinct achievement! Mumtaz mari~ Aminn..

Pahtu, bleh raya qurban.. Cuti sem 10 hari hari tu, pahtu +2 hari cuti banjir (bakal diganti..) dan skrg kat kolej for 6 days or what, then senin ni cuti laya! Laya la laya~

Kelas baru skrg, sem 2. Up sket best nya dari sem 1, sebab.. lagi ramai? Ye kot =/
Tell u the truth, saya masih lagi penyimpan setia kenangan bersama kelas waktu sem 1 :D

Yela2, macam2 saya mengomel dulu. *bukan di blog*
Tanda tak bersyukur dah kenal sahabat baru, istighfar banyak2 T_T

Selemah-lemah manusia ialah yang tidak boleh mencari sahabatdan orang yang lebih lemah ialah mereka yang mensia-siakan sahabat yang telah dicari... - Saidina Ali

Wallahualam bissawab. Doa diri sendiri menjauhi sifat-sifat mazmumah, amin.

- Malas nak ubah font colour previous posts
- Suka baca blog orang, kepada mereka2, rajin2kan update blog, masih ada secret reader di sini, kantoi di situ =P
- Kali kedua merapu tanpa buat survey, tsk tsk.
- Saya masih virgin blogger hahahaha
- Saje nak try post camni
- Banyak dah notakaki ni, the end kan di sini dulu ye

saye nk bgtau ni..

Salam alaykum

Kakak-kakak serta abang-abang sekalian,
Saya terkandas nak pulang ke kolej sebenarnya. Dan tujuan saya mengetuk-ngetuk papan huruf-huruf ini adalah untuk meluruskan sel-sel otak saya yang kusut. Kalau nak guna iron tu agak tak logic lah kan.. Jadi, konklusinya saya mangsa banjir .......... dari jauh.

Baik, seterusnya, saya masih belum mengetahui keadaan di Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah, Changlun. Berita? Al-maklum, saya juga masih pusing kepala kerana tiada update yang saya nak taipkan di sini.

Lagi nak bagi tau, saya pernah juga jadi mangsa banjir, yg real punya! Abad ini jugak, beberapa tahun yang lalu, masih pada kurun ke-21 ini. Beg, kasut, dan barang-barang saya hanyut masuk parit. Air warna coklat macam teh tarik ada gula tak hancur. Saya nangis-nangis, ketakutan. Takut tanpa motif, padahal dalam hati lain pula drama nya T_T. Biasa la, budak sekolah bawah umur 12-tahun, pengalaman mesti nak isi dengan air mata, yang macam kristal-kristal jatuh berderai lagi meningkatkan isipadu banjir. Ahhhh~

Air yang kawan juga lawan. Air yang manusia minum, juga air yang minum manusia. 8 November 2010.

***

Betul nya, saya lagi ceria berkomunikasi dua-hala. Makhluk tengah menunaikan tanggungjawab, jadi semua pergi mencari rezeki, sebab tu saya jadi dua orang je la sekarang. Bukan selalu, kan. Tapi jasad masih yang sama, cuma perwatakan di-double kan.

Ye ye, saya jarang buat post sebegini.

Tiada topik yang spesifik, cuma .... *ditinggalkan tanpa penghabisan.

Pendek kata, saya publish post sini saja dulu ye. Ini pun, sekadar nak simpan untuk memori masa hadapan.


*gelak guling-guling kuat-kuat*

buat sahabat :)

Sahabat,

Hadirnya diriku untuk menjadi teman,
pemberi ingatan bukan melalaikan,
adanya diriku penghembus semangat jihad,
bukan penggoyah iman..

Dalam sujudku,
ku menyanjungi indahnya persahabatan..











Do you still remember....
1) The first childhood story been told to you?
um, once a upon a time, there lived a red hood girl bla3

2) The first movie you watched in cinema?
syukur 21, touchin giler

3) The first person to be your friend in primary school?
azmira.. saye tegor dia dlm kelas, waktu darjah 1, mane dah awak skrg?

4) The first reaction after you've met somone you've not meet for long?
ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnn anddd hugssssssss ("/(^_^)\")

5) between fb/ fs/ ms/ and etc, which one you signed up the first?
frenster.. few years back, time tu standard 6

Are you...
ok right now?
I am, er

thinking of anything?
seat for my final exam successfully and all out and make my parents proud

doing anything?
other than typing, listening to music jer

possibly to watch tv at night?
maybe, tgk miami medical lg la mlm ni, cam best, alang2 tadak astro sini hehe

regretting anything u've done at past?
i shud, i wud, and i am..................... NOT, i let everything to Allah

worried of anything?
sure there is, bile bleh tgk seat kat exam hall?

Currently,
> where are you staying?
far away from my family

> who is next to you?
my roommate, there she is

> looking for someone?
wait till the time comes >.<

> what did u eat?
in the plate, half of nasi goreng and half of bihun goreng, both are still half of the plate

> who did u bump into?
surprisingly, Ija!! ...and we set up where n when to meet there and then

> who was the last person to yell at you?
seriously no one, im hoping for none

> what did u do 5 secs ago?
open up dictionary hehe

Can you...
: describe one thing that is possibly to be crashed out once it makes u sick?
it's a small, cute thing, can be pressed on, communicable, everyone has it, now u tell me what is it..

: be at ease when u're at the top mad of urself?
let me be

: derive the ideal gas equation?
wOoo, i'll keep to my mind till chem pspm, chill out~

: hint a lil bit, the lyrics of the song u're listening to
..ada seorang gadis, termenung di jendelaa ... lalala

Tell randomly,
# anything that surprised you today?
ade org request to be my bff kat fb, it's a wooo!

# which country u wud want to further ur studies
egypt? uk? us? dublin? ......... or malaysia?

# the person u're looking for
nice but nice

# the song which make u remember someone, and name the person
dik by wali band.. kak nasha la

# the person u want to call later
my family yg jauhh tu

# the list i-want-to-do today
study, study, studo, watch tv, be myself

# the person last received a msg from u
ezati, tanye pasal pspm punye jwpn

# the subjects u're studying
chemistry, kimia, chemical

If you're happen to...
- live alone in a big house, who wud u call to look into u?
sape nak?

- choose between keep ur friends or forget them
of cos fff... keep them! how dare me to forget friends? that's ridiculous wogay

- make a call or send a msg?
both, but rather i send msg

- fly oversea or stay in ur current country?
i wud gladly stop this hyperbola dreaming!!

- choose between jump from a 10th floor building or go into the escalator?
gilakk pa, turun tangga sudaa

Last but not least,

Are you ok now?
Eh, i tot u've asked me before?

1. Who are you?
Normal human being with heart and iman (aminn!!)

2. What are you made up of?
Various of living cells and cells and cells till I become a useful organism insyAllah =D

3. What were you doing?
Like yesterday but with different subject, tutorial... Y.Y

4. What were you thinking of?
Going back home, siapkan report on time!!, tuleh blog panjang2 mcm kak Nasha huahuahua! :P

5. What makes you smile?
me e vous, mua mua muahahah

6. Speaking of country, which do you prefer to have a visit?
Blog, do you speak??? Btw, US or UK wud be my choice, wakakaka. new hope in disguise!!

7. Are you normal?
Why? Ever seen me being weirdo before? (D.F.A doesn't count haha)

8. Events happened in last 3 days?
Went to K.Perlis for iftar.... ohh yea! & about my secret pen-pal, the person is.......

9. Are you thinking of someone right now?
I'm thinking of sometwo, three, four, faiv ......

10. Foods or drinks?
Drinks, I'm dehydrated by now!!

11. Choose between giving up or quitting;
None! Com'un la, forza man, forza!!

12. Singing or listening to music?
wud prefer listening, singing memekak woi! =P

13. Any good things happened today?
Is knowing ur result is considered as a gud thing?? OK, boleh laa.. Y.Y apart from that, nothing much.. was busy body-ing here and there :P

14. Dare to say je t'aime to someone on your opposite gender?
not for now, merci beaucoup!

15. Why do you still not asleep?
Coz I'm still awaken *yawnnnn*

16. So far, how do you describe yourself?
In short, far from logics!! Screw me T_T anybody knows how to make urself thinking logically and maturely? Ohhhh guide me, pleaseeeeee

17. Ever felt degrading yourself?
Em, rarely but I do, now force me to stop being like that!!

18. What is your intention writing this post?
Intentionally, because.. I am, em.. like @#$^&* now hahaha, and 2nd becoz I'm feeling of doing so but without too much emotional expression in, tho. *sigh*

19. How is your ex do today?
Huh? how wud I know? I never had one, so I don't care myself, shohh

20. Do you wear spects?
Yup and thinking of doing another new one, but.. bersyukur lah wahai budak

21. Ever written any similar post with more than this quantity of Qs?
hentah, maybe, let's break another record of mine, yess by crapping.. what else do u aspect me to do??

22. What do you hope for today?
a better tomorrow :) *positive, thumbs up!*

23. Any good news coming soon?
Praying, amen!

24. Why do people sigh?
..coz they are not thankful enough? (i practically do this and hope for not sighing by now)

25. How do you do in class?
Like me, felice e viva forever, haha

i wanted to say gudbye

Salam. been not writing for quite long and feel like writing. how i miss writing soooo much! life is okie here, hectic mektik here and there! .....with classes days and nights T_T

wud love to talk about english class. we've been practicing for muet all out, all sweat. see their effort, enjoy their chatters. hah! so, move along with their ways is such a great pleasure. we help each other and yourself regardless ;) nice day now!

oh yeaaaa.. today was good. like the other days (erk excluding some particular days which were not perfectly managed hehe) english class helped me to enjoy being a student, really. apart from physics actually tett~ activities were enjoyably played and i enjoyed myself. like today we had a practice on writing (see writing made my dayyy :D). so the game was like this, u were asked to create a secret nickname without people acknowledgment on the gender. we then were ordered to write a letter with the nickname on. and i did write with my full passion haha. it was fun, really!! i wrote something silly about myself in surreal. we were not allowed to reveal ourselves actually. next, our cute lecturer wud post each of our letters to another class she teaches. each of them will receive a letter from we the unknown pen-pal. this will continue till the 3rd letter, and the lecturer will reveal all of us. i'm impatiently waiting for my reply ahaha. who's the lucky man to get my letter?? well, jodoh la tuh =P hopefully he's a girl or she's a boy LOL!

despite being a student, being a roomate is such a heaven. we help each other, and most importantly, we talk to each other. but missing my mum wud never been cured if i'm still stuck in here. i do talk face-to-face with my mum and i want to do it nowwww! ohh Allah, grant me ur strength. help me to go through all these trivials. oh yea, within one month we'll be having mid sem exam. anddd the gud news is that WE ARE TO DISMISS RIGHT AFTER THE EXAM! WOHOOO!! come exam come! get me back home! this is urgent, miahaha~

...oh now i know, being home is gud and for that i highly approve the quote :

al baiyiti al jannati.

..so here i am

leaving steps behind.. setting my mind positively optimistically for the future ahead.
prayers and reminders, amen.

the disappointments left unanswered. go for the best, strike on what u had had.

sacrifices for good.





-kmk 10/11-

The Whys

First off, " I like to admire people"

Why?

..because admiring is inspiring.

Why?

...inspiration activates many people, specifically, me.

Why?

...to succeed.

Why?

...success makes life blissful.

Why?

...blissful is everyone's need.

Why?

...ask yourself.

Why?

...I don't know, I'm getting crazy myself.

Why?

...what the......

Why?

...enough is enough!





Secondly, " Thursday the mad day"

Why?

...you know, you know, you knowwww 11th of March is on Thursday.

Why?

...it's stated so!

Why?

..how shud I know. dah date die camtu tanye lg!

Why?

...sudah2, makin giler aku camni.




Thirdly, " English or BM? err, both la, rojak.. 1 Malaysia kan! :D "

Why?

... dah jawab dah kan.

Why?

..sebab aku blom pro English. so takleh nk compare mane2 bahasa pon. wakaka

Why?

...tu la, mls bace buku!

Why?

...playing is wayyy fun, when i was a kid. kalau kanak2, mmg kanak2 jugak..

Why?

...sbb lumrah kanak2 suke main. biler lg?

Why?

...kanak2 la pencipta byk2 mainan kan? (eh yeke?)

Why?

...kanak2 is full of creative ideas.

Why?

...Allah knows.

bismillahirrahmaanirrahim..

Salam and heyya :D

Welcome me in this blog world =P andddd, WOYTTTTT!! i'm sooo gonna crap a huge LOTT!
heh till the next! ;)