Inner-self talk.

There comes new post.



Deep down inside, I have no idea who I am right now. Never gonna be easy this world. 

Thus, there's something I can't explain to you. Stay. Just stay there would you please?
I'm holding tight, real tight to You.



There must be reason for I am being allocated here. Stay strong, dear self. 



Dear you, 
You sure wanna know who I am truly? If one thing would disappoint you after knowing me, will you stay or otherwise you will leave me behind faaaaaar away like I have never imagine? But I do hope you stay right there, not that far that I can reach you from within. Let all be memories, for me and you :) Just be there. Will youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu? T_T


#in.need.of.hugs.
#I.mean.big.and.warm.hugs

:)
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3 tahun beberapa bulan berlalu

Tersentak dari lamunan. Paling ke belakang.
Bunyi tapak kasut silih berganti. Semua mata memerhati kini.

"Kau ok?"
"Aku alright selalu" sambil sengih.

"Assalammualaikum!" ceria dan hampir serentak kedua-duanya menyampaikan salam.






......dan yang lainnya, masih terkesima, terkedu di situ.

Sahabat sekalian

Ya Rabbul 'Alamin,
Lindungilah sahabat-sahabat kami di sana,
Selamatkanlah perjalanan pulang mereka,
Kuatkanlah semangat mereka,
Lembutkan tutur bicara dan kata-kata mereka,
Permudahkanlah urusan mereka.

Ya Allah Ya Rahman,
Hilangkanlah kerisauan di hati-hati kami,
Tarbiahkan lah hati kami untuk bersabar dan mengingatiMu,
Kurangkan kegelojohan kami dalam menanti kepulangan mereka,
Tabahkan hati kami menerima berita-berita dari mereka,
Kuatkan semangat dan kurangkan kesedihan di hati kami.

Ya Allah,
Padamu kami meminta,
Selamatkan anak-anak kecil dan ibu mereka,
Sambutlah semangat jihad para syuhada,
Matikan mereka dalam iman dan syahadahMu,
Terbangkan roh mereka ke syurga idaman semua,

Amin ya Rabbal 'Alamin..

Selamatkan dunia ini dari peperangan
Selamatkan dunia ini dari kehancuran
Selamatkan anak-anak dari kebuluran
Selamatkan dunia.. selamatkanlah ohh..

Kedamaian terbina dari rahmat keamanan
Kebahagiaan terbina dari nikmat perpaduan
Kemajuan tercipta dari usaha pembangunan
Kasih sayang penghubung kita semua ohh..

Mari kita bergandingan
Menuju hidup yang sempurna
Bersamalah kita bina
Masyarakat harmoni

Saling hormat menghormati sesama kita
Tua muda miskin kaya usahlah dibeza
Semua bangsa dan agama

Sifat warga yang berhemah
Amal pekerti mulia
Hindari persengketaan
Kekalkan keharmonian

Anak muda dan remaja
Warga pewaris dunia
Hargai jasa yang tua
Teruskanlah perjuangannya

Memang payah
Untuk membentuk hidup yang sempurna
Akan mudah jika kita berusaha
Demi kejayaan bersama...

Selamatkan Dunia; In-team

dry heart

As salam.

Signed in..

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Oh yeah, exam starts tomorrow, mid in Jan. Within 3 months, I'm off from this college.
Would it be nice, if the plans are liking to move like they'll be..
Like what've been planned in my mind.

Family, Canada, ice skating, friends, bookstore (wuhoo!!), moviessss, Romantika Wangsa Walk (hehe! ;D), talktalktalk and talkk, tourrr, planes :P

Ok. Dreaming set, moving on. Off I go now.

hari kekantoi-an

salam alaykum.

[saye update sebagai silent reader yg loyal]

1] What does the very first blog u read say?
the blogger is a girl, Malaysian, of cos. study kat oversea, US. org Darul Aman. tapi saye dgn dia dah x mcm silent reader sgt. saye bising2 gak kat dinding fb beliau. kee3. yg best nye post utk taun baru, dia g jejln. teruja smgt saye nk g oversea. (...Aminn)

2] Has the second blogger married?
nop, he's single mingle. available? not sure there. huahua. student Canada, Malaysian. lama dh stalk, tapi saye dah kate, saye silent reader, kan. so, post dia agak sirius sket yakni mencari diri sniri. cara? tgk cermin, cakap pd diri yg dlm cermin. reflction gitu la, tringat daku pada ke-down-an motivasi time kat kolej & kertas fizik yg bakal menjelang nanti. tsk tsk. ni blog beliau, harap dpt izin huhu www.ragooze.com/

3] Who's the very 3rd blogger you stalked?
a guy, named.. err takyah la ye. Malaysian gak. susunan ayat mmg best! style aku nk buat cam dia gak a, tapi x se-power beliau. study UK. post terbaru, suh ingat pasal mati. setaun yg dtg, mendekatkan kita dgn mati. betol? =)

4] How long have you been stalking this 4th blogger?
beliau, baru jer. tak brani nk link, sori. kata2 mantap! kasi naik smangat. suh study leklok. akhirat jgn tinggai. okeh? bereh

5] Are you stalking only the men?
not really. tapi kebanyakan nye aku tersangkut kat ayat2 power dorg, which aku terasa dgn cara positif. kalau la diorg ni abg2 aku.... (takde probability langsung) *ayat tersangkut. biasenye, sbb laki ni en mantap sket bab2 sound org. (tanpa mengetepikan kata2 bunda saye yer)




*siyes, penaik semangat di alam maya a dorg ni! ade sorang lg, tapi yg tu dah bising aritu, terkantoi huhu ~.~
*ramai lg yg lain, mls nk bgtau sumer, sket2 dah ler

"Ingat kebesaran Allah, benda lain akan jadi kecil"

salam

senyum, senyum, .. hilang
kamu jer yang pikir mcm yang kamu pikir, orang lain tak pon.
bangkit, mundar mandir,
kenapa yang di belakang? kamu, majulah ke depan. macam tak biasa plak
ingat kembali, pesan punye pesan, tang tu jugak. aiyo *garu kepala*

lari jauh jauh
nak cepat?
cepat ke mana? bulat kan figura planet ni mane de penghujung.
jadi, nak cepat g mane? lama lama, masuk dlm rumah tiang dua jugak

sudah sudah la
dah tau hati bosan, buat jugak orang lain pon dah paham sangat
yang kamu tu, dah bosan tapi buat jugak lagi kenapa?
dosa kecik besar tu,
kasi ingat la brader, sista
serius cakap, geli dengar gelak kecik2 tu laki dgn pompuan,

ish dah dahh ingat mati, kawan
paling susah pon, campak diri sniri dalam kubur
takde rase lagi?
kering nih g balut diri dgn kain putih terus la.

dah dah. *cabut

Mereka berkata
Hidup perlukan cinta
Agar sejahtera aman dan bahagia
Andai tiada atau pudar warnanya
Meranalah jiwa gelaplah dunia

Warna-warna cinta
Yang terlukis di hatimu
Semat pada senyuman dan tangismu
Agar mewarnai
Jiwamu yang tulus
Seperti sang pelangi selepas gerimis
Mereka berkata
Cinta itu merah
Mengalir bersama titisan yang sempurna

Cinta berharga bila sudah tiada
Menjadi sejarah yang mungkin kan di lupa
Apa warna cinta
Bila hidup sengketa
Kabur warnanya

Warna-warna cinta
Yang terlukis di hatimu
Semat pada senyuman dan tangismu
Agar mewarnai jiwamu yang tulus
Seperti sang pelangi selepas gerimis

exam mode now.

saye nak tgk movieee

Salam alaykum warahamtullah.

Hari ni, saye nak bagi tau..

1] Pak guard, jangan la garang sangat, consider la sikit kebajikan orang lain T_T
2] baru habis kuliah malam, then dapat barang dari adik kat pak guard. kenduri saye mlm ni bersama rumet yg belom tido, hehe :D
3] this weekend saye plan nak stay over kat rumah fatin kat sik, ceruk hujung dunia =P
4] saje nak update blog, mcm dah jd rutin sebulan sekali
5] sejak sem 2 bermula, semua makhluk mcm tersangatlah busy ke hulur dan ke hilir >.>
6] dapat banyak gak kawan baru hehe, ni paling syiokkkk
7] jadi MC utk majlis ICT ahad lepas, gabra2 pon jalan gak~ ;)
8] saye masih berstatus 'silent reader'
9] baru habis makan burger :PPP
10] bakal menjadi nurse terjun (tukar bidan terjun ke nurse terjun huhu) untuk pemain ragbi, gud luck kpd mereka2, main leklok! bg saye rileks2 plak huhu

Saye rase ..

1] dah lama x buat survey, mcm tarak idea + ke-busy-an melanda juga menggugat idea utk datang dgn clean n clear huhu
2] this week saye bergerak 24/7, +/- waktu tidur dan rutin2 saye sbgi manusia, LOL
3] macam dah lama x jumpe kawan skola menengah, ehh
4] nak merapu jer dgn blog ni, heh
5] macam nak sambung study lg lepas update blog
6] nak ulang baca post2 kawan2 blogger saye
7] macam ada soalan nak tanye kat cyberclinic, okeh jap lg!
8] macam2 rase saye ade skrg...
9] banyak lagu2 lama saye dok dgr dgn rumet2, huahua~
10] sekejap je dan habis sem 1, jap lg habis matriks plak wohoo
11] majority profile fb yg saye stalk dah privatekan fb masing2 :( tapi ade segelintir yg masih open-minded, hehe. saye... x tau solid reason ape nk add mereka, sbb org add saye, saye x approve =p
12] bakal tidor lewat lg ke mlm ni?
13] oh... tgh isi borang kemasukan ke usm :) hehe

banyak gak kata2 terpendam saye ni eh :P

p/s : wahai blogger2 sekalian, update la blog!!

1. Who are you?
Normal human being with heart and iman (aminn!!)

2. What are you made up of?
Various of living cells and cells and cells till I become a useful organism insyAllah =D

3. What were you doing?
Like yesterday but with different subject, tutorial... Y.Y

4. What were you thinking of?
Going back home, siapkan report on time!!, tuleh blog panjang2 mcm kak Nasha huahuahua! :P

5. What makes you smile?
me e vous, mua mua muahahah

6. Speaking of country, which do you prefer to have a visit?
Blog, do you speak??? Btw, US or UK wud be my choice, wakakaka. new hope in disguise!!

7. Are you normal?
Why? Ever seen me being weirdo before? (D.F.A doesn't count haha)

8. Events happened in last 3 days?
Went to K.Perlis for iftar.... ohh yea! & about my secret pen-pal, the person is.......

9. Are you thinking of someone right now?
I'm thinking of sometwo, three, four, faiv ......

10. Foods or drinks?
Drinks, I'm dehydrated by now!!

11. Choose between giving up or quitting;
None! Com'un la, forza man, forza!!

12. Singing or listening to music?
wud prefer listening, singing memekak woi! =P

13. Any good things happened today?
Is knowing ur result is considered as a gud thing?? OK, boleh laa.. Y.Y apart from that, nothing much.. was busy body-ing here and there :P

14. Dare to say je t'aime to someone on your opposite gender?
not for now, merci beaucoup!

15. Why do you still not asleep?
Coz I'm still awaken *yawnnnn*

16. So far, how do you describe yourself?
In short, far from logics!! Screw me T_T anybody knows how to make urself thinking logically and maturely? Ohhhh guide me, pleaseeeeee

17. Ever felt degrading yourself?
Em, rarely but I do, now force me to stop being like that!!

18. What is your intention writing this post?
Intentionally, because.. I am, em.. like @#$^&* now hahaha, and 2nd becoz I'm feeling of doing so but without too much emotional expression in, tho. *sigh*

19. How is your ex do today?
Huh? how wud I know? I never had one, so I don't care myself, shohh

20. Do you wear spects?
Yup and thinking of doing another new one, but.. bersyukur lah wahai budak

21. Ever written any similar post with more than this quantity of Qs?
hentah, maybe, let's break another record of mine, yess by crapping.. what else do u aspect me to do??

22. What do you hope for today?
a better tomorrow :) *positive, thumbs up!*

23. Any good news coming soon?
Praying, amen!

24. Why do people sigh?
..coz they are not thankful enough? (i practically do this and hope for not sighing by now)

25. How do you do in class?
Like me, felice e viva forever, haha

i wanted to say gudbye

Salam. been not writing for quite long and feel like writing. how i miss writing soooo much! life is okie here, hectic mektik here and there! .....with classes days and nights T_T

wud love to talk about english class. we've been practicing for muet all out, all sweat. see their effort, enjoy their chatters. hah! so, move along with their ways is such a great pleasure. we help each other and yourself regardless ;) nice day now!

oh yeaaaa.. today was good. like the other days (erk excluding some particular days which were not perfectly managed hehe) english class helped me to enjoy being a student, really. apart from physics actually tett~ activities were enjoyably played and i enjoyed myself. like today we had a practice on writing (see writing made my dayyy :D). so the game was like this, u were asked to create a secret nickname without people acknowledgment on the gender. we then were ordered to write a letter with the nickname on. and i did write with my full passion haha. it was fun, really!! i wrote something silly about myself in surreal. we were not allowed to reveal ourselves actually. next, our cute lecturer wud post each of our letters to another class she teaches. each of them will receive a letter from we the unknown pen-pal. this will continue till the 3rd letter, and the lecturer will reveal all of us. i'm impatiently waiting for my reply ahaha. who's the lucky man to get my letter?? well, jodoh la tuh =P hopefully he's a girl or she's a boy LOL!

despite being a student, being a roomate is such a heaven. we help each other, and most importantly, we talk to each other. but missing my mum wud never been cured if i'm still stuck in here. i do talk face-to-face with my mum and i want to do it nowwww! ohh Allah, grant me ur strength. help me to go through all these trivials. oh yea, within one month we'll be having mid sem exam. anddd the gud news is that WE ARE TO DISMISS RIGHT AFTER THE EXAM! WOHOOO!! come exam come! get me back home! this is urgent, miahaha~

...oh now i know, being home is gud and for that i highly approve the quote :

al baiyiti al jannati.

entry yg sedikit special......

....... special untuk kak Na yg sedang berperang/berjihad dan yg sewaktu dgn nye di perantauan. huahua! =D

ingat pesan sdare mare serta pakwe (err?..) jgn dok makan jaa. study2 jugak! =P

dan buat mereka2 yg bakal menjejakkan kaki ke darat negara lain juge, jadilah OKU, a.k.a ORANG KUAT USAHA! semoga sejahtera result masing2 hendaknya =)

chillax time :D

1. what are you doing now?
pecahkan kpale pkir nak type ape. mwahaha

2. when will i close my eyes forever and never had a chance to breathe again?
God knows, im still breathing now.. alhamdulillah

3. when will i get married and have kids?
nureen, have ur way first.. okie? :P

4. when will i have my first degree?
esok?

5. what will i become when i grow up?
.....masih manusia, yg lebih tinggi dan bekerjaya, aminn haha

6. when do you have your first reunion with schoolmates?
yg official? hentahh la T_T

7. between boys and girls, which one make you happier?
err, tiada beza nya.. everybody makes me happy (",)v

8. what will you do, when someone come to you and say you are cute and pretty?
angkat kening dulu, tgk muka dia.. entah2 dia prank aku ker. kan kan?

9. last place you hang out with friends?
..kmpung tengah, sgt ramai org. huhu >.< :P

10. pick a friend who always pick a bone with you.
i have many, the latest i had was with.. em nureen juge?

11. who do you hate the most?
myself? dun hate people, or else u have double hating u back!

12. who inspire you when you're down?
the humans around me, kak nasha wud be the one jugak :D

13. do you love food?
ask malaysians, who don't?

14. where was the last place you went by plane?
jap, nak p tanya MAS.. kot la depa save lg nama aku huahua!

15. do you think you're thankful?
tsk tsk T_T knock me if i don't.

16. what was the toughest challenge you had in your life?
em, waking up in the morning? HAHAHA!!

17. do you play truant at school?
God knows, hahahaha.. i'm a gud girl! play truant simply means missing gossip in action, which i don't miss any (hopefully hehe) :P

18. name 3 films you watched in cinema..
percy jackson, toothfairy, and hsm3 (follow hierarchy)

19. the cureent book you're reading..
little bird, brape lame tah nk habes ni.. hahaha

20. are you crazy?
i am positively mentally crazy! ;)

21. what are your feelings now?
em... suke, rase mcm aku ni copy cat, and freedom?

22. last programme you watched on tv?
berita kut, ade budak tu ikut pakwe nye lari p indon ish3

23. do you stay overnight just to watch movie?
huhu, sadly yep.. it was when i was a high school student. lol

24. why do you love to type/write?
syiokk, buleh crap mcm2.. which makes me blissful. heheh

25. say a word you use everyday..
oyt? :P

26. last person yelled at you?
you. (saye dgr kamu mrh saye tuduh kamu yer) LOL again -.-"

27. ever see one of your friends smiling suddenly behind you?
ader, die tu ha.. yg kenakan aku hari tu. sape tah hahaha

28. in a day, how many times you laugh?
wan too thwee for faif

29. the last birthday party you attended?
arlyna's! full of laughters hehe

30. ever meet someone weird and lousy?
die tgh kalut tu, jgn kacau.. die marah kang

31. last picture you had with?
dah delete, tak ingat.. sorry!

32. being in the pictur or the photographer?
both! jap, photographer best.. sbb model2 lawa :P

33. last song you download-ed?
err by mestica, main tekan je, takde motif. hehe

34. do you own a car?
soon to be, a car's company pon boley

35. are you high?
hah?

36. one thing always in your mind is..?
cells. yeaa, nerve cells laa.. pastu?

37. do you get mad easily?
dia slalu, alaa yg ada tanduk dua atas kepala tu.. tak ingat?

38. bicycle or car?
the fastest, bicycle kot, kalau jam....kan?

39. when say about school, what are in your mind?
teachers, classes, uniforms, bag.... offenceslips :P (HAHAHA)

40. do you like being trapped in traffic jam?
yeahhh, it helps a lot especially to be reason-ed on



..........................offenceslips?